Argh , I still feel disturbed about what happened . Situations has been shaky lately . I still couldn't believe that I made her (iknowtheyknowwho) cry .

If I just say out that one word , it can change everything and this wouldn't have happened . Unfortunately , I didn't . I'm ashamed of myself for not doing the right thing when I'm supposed to . I don't know how and when can I overcome all this . It seems hard not because I don't want to forget about it . Its just that it keeps on coming to my mind .

This is for myself :

You should learn to make the right decision . You know you can but you just didn't do it . How stupid could you be ? You should think of what is right and what is wrong . In fact , you don't have to cause you know whether it's right or it's wrong . You have worked hard for something and you've got it . You took advantage of it because she has never questioned you to what you do cause she knows you can do it . Now , everything changed . She couldn't believe that you did such a thing that she cried . All you have to do now is work really hard to gain back what you want . Even though you could get back that thing , doesn't mean you could still be holding on to that spot . Good luck to you Maisarah ! Learnt your lessons already ? Don't be weak by keep on crying . Stand up for yourself and be strong . Too bad things have happened but you have to get up and move forward .