I don't know how to describe today . For seriously ahk . I don't know how to describe myself right now also . Guess what ? I ignored some people AGAIN today . Sorry for that to those people . Come one ahk you call , call , call . Irritating laa sial ! Get a life ahk . You think people so free to entertain you is it ? WTF ! Hais . I just need someone right now to express everything . Obviously , someone that I can trust , someone that I can depend on and someone that understands . Arrrgh ! Again ahk , I feel like screaming at the top of my voice . If I scream , later people complain noisy . Correct or not ? You know what I've been wanting to do since last week ? I want to try go somewhere alone and think and reflect . Maybe going to void deck is good ? Anyway , it's just under my block . Easy to go home . Sit there can daydream and make my brain do everything . Sometimes , I just don;t understand why .... Erm nvm . Keep it to myself is good :D It's true what my teacher said to me . " Sometimes by smiling , is a better thing to do eventhough when you are sad and mad . "

Sometimes , I just don't bother to smile . Sorry oka people (: If I have problems that don't really affect me that much , I don't mind to smile and laugh the whole day . But if I have problems that really affected me so much , it's hard for me to smile . Better find a way to make me smile if you wanna see me smile .

And to Udin .. If you are reading this , it's good for you . Yes I know I ignored you right now . But can you please like stand up for yourself ? Don't always depend on me or either Amir . We tell you for so many times already . So , please think and solve it . What you expect me to do ? I can't go to (......) and scold (....) right ? You are already sec 2 and you should know what to do . It's already good that I'm saying this nicely or rather than me screaming at your face about this right ? Think okae !